The first night I met you the attraction was instant and electric. You felt it too-I could see it in your eyes. We talked so much that first night and you saw right thru my eyes into my soul. It scared me that you could read me so easily. When we saw each other 2 days later I could feel the way I was looking at you betrayed me-I didnt want you to know. For me it was love at first sight, literally. Like something out of a movie. After a couple of dates I knew you felt the same because I could see in your eyes and in the little things you did like holding my hand or sitting beside me in the booth at the restaurant. Little things matter. Even though I was pregnant with another man's child facing being a single mother YOU made me feel safe. You made me have confidence in myself to do it. I loved hanging out with you and your kids. I loved going down to the Riverwalk and walking hand in hand with you. I loved watching strangers come up to you to shake your hand and thank your for your service to the country-that made me proud. I loved cooking dinner for you guys and trying to help you out around the house as much as possible. I loved that you would rub my back for me and that you would place your hand on my growing belly and talk about my baby girl. I loved that your girls were always giggling when they could feel her kicking and moving. I remember you telling me you were getting out of the military and telling me it would change things. I remember asking you "does that mean you dont want to see me anymore" to which you came to me, grabbed my hand, kissed my hand and said "no! no of course I still want to see you". Later that night I asked you for the second time if you had a girl friend back home and you told me no. You said "No I am all yours" and I replied with "good because I dont like to share" then you made love to me. I loved seeing in your eyes that you were wild on fire wanting me. You loved seeing that I was in love with you-you kept saying "you're eyes are so different now than when we first met". I truly felt like I had met my prince charming and then you told me that you would be leaving Georgia Nov 21 (6 days after my daughter was born-she was in the nicu then). I didnt get a chance to hug you or kiss you or the kids. I was so sad. You said you wanted to be friends. You said you loved me but that you didnt want to admit it but you could no longer deny it. You said if we were meant to be together we would be. We talked after you moved home to Virginia with your girlfriend that you had the WHOLE TIME i was with you. I tried to remain friends with you as much as it hurt. I decided I would rather have you as a friend than not in my life at all. Then you start trying to psychoanalyze me telling me I am looking for a different answer. I text you and say good morning, no response so I text back and say you must be busy-hope you have a good day. that is NOT looking for a different answer. you know me well enough to know that i say what i mean and mean what i say. if i wanted a different answer i wouldve asked a different question/made a different statement i assure you. I am very direct. I miss having you in my life, I really do. You still have the most beautiful brown eyes I have ever seen. i will ALWAYS love you and I will ALWAYS believe you are "the one". You started belittling me and I lost my religion. After everything I told you about my ex-husband I am not sure why you thought that was ok. The only thing that did was make me feel like i was pushed back into a corner and the ONLY way I had out was to fight my way out....which is what i did. I told myself when I got divorced that I would NEVER get back into that position again but there I was and I did the only thing I knew to do. Fight to protect myself from the belittling and fight to get out of the corner. I am sorry for that but I will not be bullied by anyone EVER again. I made that known to you on night #1 when we were talking. I will never be the same after the 5 months I spent with you. I learned from you that there are caring men in the world. Why you lied about having a girl friend I still dont know. But I do know if you were here you would have a car and a job with the police force. And we would work together to get your babies back to you where they belong. My number is the same, feel free to text me or send me a private message on here. I love you-always :-*
