The Lurking Thoughts

My music, my friends, and my books

Are all part of a blockade.

They block the deep and dark thoughts

Hidden behind my walls.

No one can see them, not even me.

At least as long as the blockades are up.

But sometimes when there are

No tunes to flow throughout my body,

No people to change the direction of my

Train of thought,

No stories for me to venture on,

The blockades are broken.

When the blockades are broken

The deep and dark thoughts lurk on

The edges of the cracks.

Watching me, knowing that I grow weaker

Every second.

Just waiting...

Then when I am at my breaking point

The thoughts flood my state of mind.

Taking control of my mental

And emotional state.

Torturing me,

Drowning me...

It's hard to find sanity in this dark world.

But I always find it.

No matter how many thoughts

Flood my brain.

I almost didn't one time.

I was almost engulfed by these beasts.

I was losing it,

I couldn't do it.

I was falling and falling very fast.

They were stronger than they appeared to be

At that moment.

I underestimated them.

But I found sanity,

And escaped their deadly grip.

Now I will never underestimate them

Even though I can't see them I know

They're there.

So now I'm always prepared to find sanity.

Sometimes...