Heartbroken Goodbyes

If you had as many tears
As I did for you
You're brain wouldn't function
And wouldn't know what to do
I can't handle anymore cracks
That your love tends to bring
I can't fight any longer
When at night brings a sting
I hate when a song comes on
And you're all that comes to mind
Looking in a sea of faces
Yours is the only one I want to find
Jump in the shower
Just to drown out my sobs
This heartbroken thing
Happiness it robs
Walls become thicker
Smiles become fake
You become a shell
With nothing left to take
I gave my heart to you
And I don't want it to reinstate
Don't want to hurt me
Well, you are far to late
I want to hate you
But for some reason I cannot
Love and hatred
At this crossroad I am caught
Love is not blind
It's just stubborn as hell
It give you a reason to fight
But your sanity, you must sell
I'm tired of the pain
I'm tired of the misery
I hate what I won't get back
And I'm sick of the memories
I'm tired of being wrong
That my judgement is so awry
But what I'm tired of the most
I'm tired of goodbyes.