Letting you In

Letting you in wasn't easy,
But i decided to do it anyway,
As i sit at this dreaded table,
Thinking of what else to say.
You found the chinks in my armor,
You found the hole in my stone wall,
And little by little, as I trusted you more and more,
My stones began to fall.
At first i thought you'd freak out,
Thought you'd up and walk away,
But despite what I am used to,
You've been around even after i told you that day.
Nobody's ever really stuck around,
They've all made excuses of why they had to leave,
They beat and abused and abandoned me,
Pain was all I had received.
So I put up a wall and blocked everything out,
Hoping nobody could get through,
At first it all seemed to work out for me,
Until I was sent away and met you.
At first I let you in slowly,
Being cautious on the way,
You're so damn perfect; you have no idea,
I don't care what people say.
You say I'm pretty,
You think I'm kind,
But you have no idea what's on the inside,
I need to move on but what if I can't leave it behind?
What you think matters to me,
When your upset so am I,
I don't want to lose you,
Can you promise to not say goodbye?
Can you promise to do your best?
To cheer me up when I am down,
Can you promise to be there for me?
To save me before I drown?
Will you promise to take care of me?
To pick me up when I fall down,
To love me for who I am, even as your kiddo,
To wipe away my frown?
If there were more people like you in the world,
What a great world this would be,
I'm trusting you to understand, even in hard times,
I'm trusting you to take care of me.
Can you? Will you?
Please??