Mom I miss you

Mom, to this day it still hurts and doesn't make any sense.
Why did God have to take you away from me when I was only a little kid?
Whoever said it gets easier with time, was definitely wrong.
It still hurts just as bad, and I still have trouble dealing with you being gone.
When you died, it felt like a part of my heart was ripped from my chest.
My heart was broken and my whole world fell apart the day that you left.
Your always in my thoughts,
And not a day goes by where something doesn't remind me of the things we used to do.
When you went away, you took a big part of my heart with you.
I'd give everything I have to see you one more time.
I'd do anything in the world to be able to have one last hug.
I know that if you would have been around, I would have never started using drugs.
Honestly, I'd love to be able to spend Christmas with you one last time.
I know you wouldn't want me to be sad, but I can never seem to get into the Christmas spirit, no matter how hard I try. So damn sick of crying.
Why does it still have to hurt so bad?
Our time together was cut so short, but I'm grateful for the time together we did have.
I miss and love you so much mom,  but I know we'll see each other again.
The day that we meet in heaven will be the day I find out what true happiness really is.