Never can find the right words to say

by little one   Jun 23, 2015

I'll just try to explain how I feel the best way that I can.
Honestly though, this is something I myself don't even understand.
Each time I go to tell you how truly special you are to me,
The words never seem to come out right every time that I try.
Maybe it's just because there honestly are no words to describe how I feel about you inside.
The thought of you losing you is too much to bear and something my mind just can't comprehend.
Already lost enough people in my life that I loved.
Don't think that my heart can withstand going through that kind of pain again.
You told me you wouldn't leave, and you've stayed true to your word.
So why am I still terrified that your gonna leave? 
Guess my abandonment issues have gotten the best of me.
Can't help but worry that I'm gonna push you away by something that I say or do, and it scares me to death.
Holding onto you for dear life because you mean everything to me; and I would be devastated if you ever left.
One thing I can say that I know I did right in my life was becoming friends with you.
I'd give my life for you without question, and to help you, there is nothing in this world that I wouldn't do.
Never told anyone this before, but my whole life I've felt like an outcast, like I didn't fit in anywhere at all.
But whenever I talk to you those feelings go away and I feel that I do have a purpose, even if it's just to be there to answer the phone when you call.
Always felt unwanted, especially after my aunt told me that I should have been the one that died instead of my mom.
Unwanted from the very beginning, since I was adopted, so its obvious my birth mother wanted me gone.
But after we started talking again, for the first time in my life, I actually felt that I belonged.
No one in my life has ever had a positive effect on me the way that you do.
That's one of the reasons why I know that you're the angel God has sent to watch over me.
Even after everyone including my dad lost all hope in me, you still believe.


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  • 3 years ago

    by Beautiful Tragedy

    Oh my... oh goodness... oh boy I'm in tears..
    This kind of unconditional love... it is really something.
    You truly penned your heart out in this.
    This is a masterpiece.

    • 1 year ago

      by little one

      thank u so much that means a lot to me