Personality Paradox

Please tell me I'm the only one
I want so badly to be special

Please tell me I'm not...
I So fear being alone.

I second guess myself, routinely
in an endless rotary. No escape I can see.

Do I struggle futilely
or fight phantoms only I can see?
that may well be nonexistent?

Is my every thought a burning revelation
a light known to the prophets of old?

Or is my every word mindless drivel
to put broadcast TV to shame?

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Charles "Chad" Picard, 2016