Weighing The Cost

I Know that theres no really poetry quality to this.. but it is what it is

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I've sacrificed so much to earned this title. lately i have been questioning how much i really have given.

My family.

A relationship with my brother that had just been mended.
A sister that would give me the world if she could.
My parents that taught me everything i know.

My friends.

One that may not of have been blood but might as well have been. One that i grew up with. and one that is here with me.

My love.

The girl that i would have married. would of had raised kids. would travel the world. and that would have gotten old together.

My innocence.

The part of me that wanted just to play.

My PEACE. now TORMENTs me every time i close my eyes.
brings me to my point.

How could have all of those good things bring so much pain to me now.

Was it really worth to sacrifice all those things that brought me joy.

I know the answer.
and the reason.

not all of us can be happy. not all of can have that high school love story that your parents had.

some just arnt meant to.

There is a part of us that is willing to forsake everything we have ever wanted to charge into the gates of hell for just a chance of peace.