All I had was bandages

I remember now,
Why I was so angry with you that day.
As I close my eyes
and take myself back in my own hypnosis state;
Anger once again surges in my chest.
"Why didn't you tell me?"
I bit my lip, more tears forming in my eyes.
"I tried."
"No, you didn't."
"YES. I DID."
What did you think my trying to talk to you before I left was?
Why do you think I was so desperate to follow you back to where you were going,
Where you could hold me,
Without it being seen?
You were supposed to protect me.
I needed you,
I needed to tell you
And when I tried you blew me off.
I suppose that's what made me so angry;
Even though I told myself that
I didn't blame you,
I did.
I didn't want to...
and because I knew it was wrong to do
And so I never said anything.
It wasn't your fault.
It wasn't my fault either.
But something inside of me blamed us both.
You, for not talking to me when I needed you,
And then not getting my side of the story first.
And me,
For not pushing harder.
For not protecting myself.
For letting myself lose you when I needed you most.
Raw emotions claw at my chest as another onslide of memories come.
"Well... my ride is going to be here soon. I should go. I'm not coming back."
And all you said...
Was ok.
And goodbye.
And then you turned your back once more,
And walked back through the door.
I trembled there for a few moments more,
Watching you take your place through the glass window of the door;
We were both trembling but I wasn't trying to hide it.
And I walked away too.
See that's the thing.
You didn't even give me a chance,
You got the news and you shut down before I could even say a word.
You turned your back on me without even a second thought.
And that HURT.
It's why I was so angry with you.
You Cut every tree in fear of a fire;
Even though I had no matches.
All I had was bandages;
to patch the wounds your betrayal left me covered in....