Lesions

Got me wishin' that these lesions would start leavin',
but it seems they want to stay 'cause I'm still bleedin',
gettin' hard to see the way 'cause I'm still grievin',
and my lungs won't even work, I'm barely breathin',
fill my head with all these lies, they're so deceivin',
why are the ones that leave the ones I'm still needin',
now it's hard to find my faith, can I believe in,
anything, because this life is so mistreatin',
feel surrounded by this pain, it's so defeatin',
feel surrounded by these waves, they're not receedin',
now I'm drownin' in this place, my life is fleetin',
still I'm searchin' for your face, but you're retreatin',

So I'm sorry for the way that I perceive this,
don't you know that in my soul I'm a defeatist,
and I'm sorry for the pain, but please believe this,
losing hope within my soul, can I complete this,
and I'm sorry, hard to say this through my weakness,
I don't know within my soul can I defeat this,
so I'm sorry for the chains that change my reasons,
my tortured soul's stuck on repeat, so I repeat this,
said I'm sorry for the way that I perceive this,
don't you know that in my soul I'm a defeatist,
and I'm sorry for the pain, but please believe this,
losing hope within my soul, cannot complete this,
and I'm sorry, hard to say this through my weakness,
I don't think that in my soul I can defeat this,
I can't explain, been this way since just a fetus,
wish my soul could just forget, but can't delete this,

Got me wishin' that these lesions would start leavin',
but it seems they want to stay 'cause I'm still bleedin',
given up on all my goals I'm not achievin',
'cause these doubts inside my mind are still stampedin'...