Not that selfish

I look in the mirror
I see the reflection of a ghost
I ask myself what I’m doing here
Where’s the person I used to know?
Listen now, I’m not afraid to die
I’d be down to go but I’ll never try
Mama, I’m sorry for the things I put you through
Papa, I’m sorry I’m just exactly like you
I know this is something y’all will never understand
I can’t explain the thoughts I have
I’m alive but I feel like I’m barely breathing
For y’all I’ll gasp until my heart stops beating.