My truth

Trapped in a skin unknown
But to their surprise I’ve been here all along
In a world full of sin
But somehow mine is more wrong.
I was created to procreate
Lead a "normal" life as Christians would say.
But viewed as an abomination
I never would have chosen this way.
I put on this facade
Trying to hide the real me.
Bounded by invisible shackles
The ones only I could see.
How i long for a family
A wife to kiss when i get home.
But yet i feel as though my life will be spent alone.
My heart craves for what my body wont allow.
Ive tried to be normal but I just stick out somehow.
Masked most of my short life
I hide this pain behind a smile.
World full of destruction
Somehow I’m the one on trial.
We fear what we're not accustomed to
Something I don't understand.
Ive never would have chosen this life
Lying with another man.
Gay, faggot, abomination, I've heard it all before.
My skin is built tough but my heart's a little sore.
Shunned, belittled, and abandoned, theres nothing left you can do.
Ive been through it all, scared to live MY TRUTH.
A wife’s first birth, a child’s first step
The little things I’ve missed
How im fully capable of those desires
But yet I still remain this
On the surface im fine
But my interior is caving in.
How can I share a smile
When too, I’m suffering.
Nov 2016