To God with pain

My God I have taken all you gave
Despite the pain I try to be brave

My Lord I'm not trying to complain
But sometimes I can't bear the pain

Whatever you put on my way I take
All the sufferings I take for your sake

Been hurt and stabbed in a bad way
Months passed but still feel it today

From my past what I can recall
One by one they have hurt me all

Family, friends and the one I gave my heart
All have hurt me and one tore me apart

Not a single day I have been in peace
This suffering doesn't want to cease

Oh God if I haven't been loyal and pure
Then put all the blame on me for sure

My bleeding heart and scattered soul
And all the tears which I can't control

Are witness of the pain I do endure
Such a pain for which there is no cure

Just a bit of happiness I went for
A bit of love, asked for nothing more

Felt the luckiest man in the universe
Now feels like I was caught by a curse

My Lord I truly believe you did give
This love to me and for it I used to live

Now your Divine order came to take it
I didn't deserve it, maybe I was the misfit

My Lord all the pieces of me which are left
My heart, soul and body which failed the test

I do present in your Divine Highness
And lower my head out of shyness

My God I am so broken that I can't take
The pain that comes with this heartache

My tears this night are testifying again
And you know it, I don't have to explain

My Lord still I do not whine or complain
Even when my life and love went in vain

When there is none to collect my pieces
Day by day the desire to live decreases

I shall wait for the angel of death to take
My soul and finally I will be able to forsake

Oh Lord that time I won't complain at all
It will be my fate whatever will befall

Oh God with pain but without any protest
It feels like I'm useless and my life is a jest

Oh Lord forgive me if I said something wrong
Wanted to say I'm hurt but it became a bit long