day 29

there’s always a first time for everything

every morning, i open my eyes for the first time
however, i never recall the exact time i do

just as i never recall the exact time
i opened my eyes after being born
nor do i recall if i ever opened my eyes
while being in the womb

i do however know
that every time i open my eyes
is the first time i opened them
after I have closed them

and that every time i close my eyes
is the first time i closed them
after i have opened them

But all my life i grown accustomed to cherish the first time
and i, foolishly, have grown believing that the first time is only meant to be once in a life time experience

an experience that i’m supposed to remember forever
an experience that’s meant to change me in ways i never experienced before

yet every day, i open my eyes for the first time after having closed them
yet every day, i close my eyes for the first time after having opened them

indeed, it changes me in ways that I am unaware of

but most importantly, it allows me to see
that someday

i will close my eyes
and it will be the first time i will close them forever
to never again open them

and i won’t have anymore first times to cherish

Prompt: day 29 - to open something for the first time