This Room- My Death Bed

This room- my trapping,
With nothing so great,
Is full of memories,
And reeks with change,
The sheets in here,
No longer invite,
Too rough to touch,
In the middle of night,

This room- my prison,
And it‘s tight locked doors,
Draw me in closer,
Until I crawl it's floors,
Stripped of all feeling,
Left lonely and scared,
I fight for the door knob,
That is no longer there,

This room- my small cage,
And it's shrinking walls,
Suffocate my soul,
And block out my calls,
The smell is awful,
Of pain and fear,
Longing and hatred,
Lost screams in my ear,

This room- my death bed,
Where forever I sleep,
Is full of my hatred,
And tears that I weep,
My body is broken,
Starved and alone,
The skin is so thin,
You can see every bone,

They ask what's the cause,
And too many know,
But none of them speak,
They're too intrigued with the show,
As I lay lifeless,
In this barren cold room,
My suicide letter is read,
As heads bend in gloom,

I wrote with my blood,
And my last fading words,
As I tried to describe,
Exactly what hurt,
This is what I wrote,
This is what I said,
Here in this dark room,
This room- my death bed,

Hey Mom and Dad,
Guess you didn't expect this,
Not from your ‘perfect daughter‘,
And this life sealed with a kiss,
But something you forget,
You never asked why,
You just turned away,
When you saw me cry,

I felt so alone,
So ruthless and scarred,
But no one really noticed,
This room was too barred,
All of my memories,
And all of my pain,
Seemed to get harder,
I went mindless, insane,

This life was a torture,
And I just wanted out,
But no one would listen,
To what this pain was about,
I'd try and I'd try,
When I'd never get a reply,
So finally I decided,
I might as well die,

I left all behind,
And in truth, I feel numb,
But the truth only matters,
When there's a listening some,
So I hope when you read this,
You'll finally sit down,
And hear what I've been trying
To say for so long now,

This was the end,
Suicide was my choice,
No one ever listened,
To my screaming voice,
So I took those pills,
And drank that beer,
And I finally escaped,
From this hell in here.

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