Changing Emotion? (my 1st acrostic!)

Can it be that even
Hate could shift into something
Amazingly confusingly
New? A whole different realm of
Grossly exciting and disgusting
Interesting emotion that-
No. I won't admit it. I can't love a
Gag-worthy unforgivable...

Except... I do?... I do. He
Moves me, and I despise him.
Or do I love him? Oh, the confusion!
The way he is,
It touches me.
Of course I must be daft.
Never should I love him. But do I
?

-K. M. L. C.