Doesn’t seem to take much
A word, a joke, a sound
It hits hard,
Even if no one’s around
The screams echo
Pounding in my head
Words forming and breaking
Saying you wish you were dead
Curl into a ball
Like that will keep me from harm
I should know that doesn’t work
Just look at my arm
Chanting my mantras
Doesn’t do a thing
Think about anything
To keep me from that cold sting
The blade forms
I see it so clearly
As the pain begins to grow
My scars start searing
Itching to be reopened
To take everything away
Takes everything I have
Don’t listen to what it may say
Legs begin to shake
Breathing starts to change
My surroundings shift
Everything becomes rearranged
I need a tether
Just to keep me here
Can’t let myself give in
Don’t shed a single tear
Tell me it’s all in my head
That I haven’t actually moved
Trying to form a single thought
To help me to be soothed
I can feel the touches,
I can hear the words,
Repeat that I’m not there
That this is absurd
Tell myself over and over
That everything is fine
The words completely lost
Where there’s no concept of time
Wandering through memories
Drowning in the sorrow
Can’t even contemplate
There being a tomorrow
I’m to far deep
Go ahead hum my song
Buried alive
Now won’t be long
I’ll live in this hell soon
Won’t even have to wonder
Lost for eternity
As the panic pulls me under...
