I Lost Her

I lost her and I know the reason why I lost her,
She never fought for me and said get lost Sir,

I would have just left forever if she was content,
But to hurt her or anything was never my intent,

She should have trusted me as I always told her all,
But yet she gave me this agonizingly painful fall,

She’s gone all mute and wouldn’t utter a single word,
And Every morning she spoke to me my humming bird,

I sent her the fake document so she won’t worry for me,
The real was quite scary and I chose her to be worry free,

I am sorry Sid I let you down but I had my own cause,
I wasn’t a fool and knew you would know in a single pause,

Little did I know that it would spiral this much out of control,
I knew you would understand me as we are from a single soul,

I wanted to be in front of you and explain everything with proof,
But you never faced me and your anger was through the roof,

I am confused I don’t know what to do or what to say,
My whole life had turned upside down and it’s all grey,

If you still loved me you would have given me a chance,
I know you would have understood me in a single glance,

My patience is running out as I can’t believe you’re doing this,
It all was so heavenly and I thought it will always be bliss,

I did feel you can get really angry at times but ignored it,
There were red flags but I never considered them for a bit,

I was blinded in your love and you were all I could see and hear,
I thought you loved me forever and not even my soul to bare,

I am tired, hurt and broken as my faith in love has now ended,
It’s painful and I know I will never find love again as I intended.