I try so hard to please people
yet they always seem upset
i try so hard to fix things
but bad results are all i get
i want so badly to fit in everywhere and with everyone, but that means pretending to be a lot of people I'm not
i don't really know who i am, and i fear that I'll never find out
i feel like everyone hates me
like everything i do and say is wrong
and it seems as though the harder i try to make things right, the worse they become
i try to be honest but every time i tell the truth it gets me into worse trouble
I've always been one to express my feelings but i got sick of being so forward and i tried to change
i tried to hold everything inside but in the end it was all exposed anyway
its hard to hold back the tears
they burn in my eyes and scar my cheeks when they trickle down my pale flesh
sometimes i think I'm made of glass
it feels like people see right through me, and I'm so weak i shatter when confronting the simplest of conflicts
i know i have nothing to complain about
my life really is great
so why did i write this?
because i hurt inside
it hurts to know my birth mom thought she couldn't take care of me
she should have had more faith in herself
it hurts to know my current mother wishes i was the exact opposite of me
i don't want to change for her
i hurts to know i treat everyone like shit
i actually used to think i was a good person
maybe someday everything will change and maybe I'll do something right
but until that day approaches i need guidance
so please...help me.
