Collateral damage

Tell me if you cared so much about her
Why would you ever go inside me?

You say that you started feeling guilty
Conveniently when I started wanting more

Your conscience must have been missing
When you kept texting me late at night

When you kept telling me you wanted more
Asking me how far that I would let you go

If it really didn't mean anything to you
Then why are you feeling so mentally torn?

Don't like the taste of the mess you made?
Did being selfish finally begin to taste sour?

You say that you didn't mean for any of this
But you sure didn't try very hard to avoid this

could have put a stop before anything began
Instead you were the one who started it all

I know i was a willing participant in the deceit
I let the desire of being desired darken me

I honestly didn't care about her at all
All I cared about was the high you gave me

Then you suddenly took it all away from me
Because your feelings finally caught up to you

You shut off your affection like a light switch
Leaving me feel like I was all alone in the dark

Left me with all of these conflicting feelings
Making me wonder what it really is that i miss

is it actually you that i am missing so much
Or is it simply the way that you made me feel?

It never mattered to you what i had wanted
You only cared that you got what you wanted

You just left me stranded out in the cold
Guess i was nothing more than collateral damage