I keep replaying
Scenes I swore I buried
Every hallway
Every door
Still leads me back to that story
You said you’re sorry
I said I was fine
But I’m still picking out the glass
From the corners of my mind
Am I letting my past rip me apart?
Holding on to every scar like it’s art
Tracing every crack in my own heart
Till it all falls
All falls
Am I letting my past call all the shots?
Turning every new start into a stop
If I’m the one that’s tying all these knots
Can I let go
Let go or not?
I talk in circles
So I don’t say the truth
Blame the weather
Blame the town
Blame a younger version of me and you
But it’s my fingers
Clinging to the frame
I keep living in the picture
Then curse it for staying the same
Am I letting my past rip me apart?
Holding on to every scar like it’s art
Tracing every crack in my own heart
Till it all falls
All falls
Am I letting my past call all the shots?
Turning every new start into a stop
If I’m the one that’s tying all these knots
Can I let go
Let go or not?
What if I just
Drop it
Right here on this floor
Let the dust
Have it
Walk myself out the door
If I’m hurting me more than the memories did
Why am I living like a punishment?
Am I letting my past rip me apart?
Holding on to every scar like it’s art
Tracing every crack in my own heart
Till it all falls
All falls
Am I letting my past call all the shots?
Turning every new start into a stop
If I’m the one that’s tying all these knots
Can I let go
Let go or not?
Softly
I ask in the dark
Am I letting my past
Rip me apart?
