Uncertainty

Thunder is rolling in the distance,
I hear it, yet I don't;
There is something greater on my mind,
Something impossible to comprehend.
I'm alone with my thoughts,
Which can not be a good thing;
Staring at four walls,
Just staring....
The memory replays like a bad movie,
I'm forced to endure it again and again;
Her glorious body,
My prized possession,
His nude body...!
I'm trying to understand...I saw his hands on her body....
Why would my wife be in OUR bed with another man?
My thoughts are not focused, I realize.
Where did Sarah go?
I can not remember.
One thing I DO remember:
Where he went.
His body is still on the bed...
and I hold his head in my lap.