My One and Only Love

I've only had one
love in my life
because i waited for the one
who i could stay with in life

from the very beginning i knew
that we would be together forever
so i held out my hand and gave u my heart
you too gave me your own

we began to plan our future
from every child
to every curtain shade
we had it all going

a year passed and we knew
we shall beat the odds and show them
i professed my love to you
i even gave u a ring

you wrote me a poem
stating our last name
we would be together forever
but then i was blindsided

After a year and nearly four months
you called me and i knew something was wrong.
you avoided me for the last two days
and normally our every extra moment was together

i asked and prodded what was going on
Finlay i got it
you told me that you felt that we weren't going to be together forever
and told me u needed to decide what to do

after the line ended i clicked the phone off and fell to the floor
i lay there shrivelled and helpless
all i could do is cry and hope
i laid there for 12 hours under my blanket in darkness

my mom came to the door and told me it was time for work
so i got up and got ready and left
all day at work all i could do is think of you
it was hell standing by as my love teetered back and forth in my mind

u called me at work and told me to call you back at home
i got home and u asked me questions like how was your day
and made light conversation so my heart raced
she wants me back ill get to keep her

you wanted me to come over and talk
but i was afraid i wouldn't be able to think straight with u here
so i asked you your decision
you thought i knew

but with loves hope i was still blinded
you told me that you thought we should break up
i fell to the floor once again
and cried violently

once i had the courage to pick up the phone
i asked you why
you said we have changed and gave me some reasons
you said it was for us

ARE YOU GOD
HOW CAN YOU DECIDE FOR US
HOW CAN YOU STEAL MY HEART
but the worst is to come

i asked you again to find a little more on why
and i hear things but not the truth
maybe i just cant realize it
maybe you are hiding something

But the worst was when it was my turn
i said do you have anything else to say before i do
she said no go ahead
i said i wish i would have been given a chance to fix whatever it is i have done wrong
with every word i lost more feeling in my body and more reason to leave
i continued on as soon as i could speak another word
i said but i see that is to late now
and by now i felt my heart total crash with now possible recovery
i said "GOODBYE"
u cried and said bye and immediately hung up.
so here i am 1:30 in the morning still crying helplessly knowing i told my love goodbye
i wont be able to sleep tonight
i wont be able to work tomorrow
i diddn't know if i will be able to continue to breathe
because my body is filled with so much pain
so i hope this is what u wanted for us