One Last Goodbye

I put on my smile
When I walk out the door
Hiding what’s inside of me
Is what the mask is for

I bottle up emotions
Don’t let go of pain
Until I am alone again
The bottle can’t contain

I cry myself to sleep each night
Wondering why I’m here
What’s the point of living
When there can not be a cure

I look outside my window
As the world passes me by
Everyone living their happy lives
While I just live my lie

I grab the knife and clutch it tight
Wanting only for more pain
The physical sense to cancel out
What my emotions seem to contain

I cut deeply into my skin
A tear sheds from my eye
I just wish I had more strength in me
To give one last goodbye