Broken Hearted Mistake

A broken heart still breaking,
The fault is only mine,
I should have, could have, given a chance,
But I didn't allow the time,

So badly I want to be able to feel,
Deep down, I know it's there,
But I cannot reach inside any farther,
Everything is so bare,

So here I am, I'm alone again,
More broken than before,
I need this, want this, crave this, feel this,
But I'm not living anymore,

I'm not giving back what I should,
I'm hardly being fair,
But I don't know what to do anymore,
Something isn‘t there,

So why am I so quick to pull away?
WHAT IS IT THAT I'M MISSING?
And why is it that it can't be found,
Is my mistake worth fixing?

Why am I sitting here in tears?
I thought I knew what I had done,
I'm so confused about everything now,
All I know is the hurt has only just begun,

And I relive this from the beginning,
But still, the one to blame is me,
Once again, my story ends in loss,
Sadness wouldn't, couldn't set me free.