I cant...

I cant look at you like i used to,
cause it brings back our past,
a past that revolved around you,
a past that just couldn't last.

i cant think about you the same way,
cause i think of the times we had,
the thoughts of a brighter day,
thoughts of the good times, not the bad.

i cant dream of you anymore,
cause then i would want whats no longer there,
a lie isn't something i want anymore,
your lies hurt me and you don't care.

i cant talk about you all the time,
cause it would make me reminisce,
about the times when my heart shined,
times i cant let myself miss.

i cant call you when i need to talk,
cause hearing your voice would make me crawl back to you,
i cant crawl anymore, i finally got the strength to walk,
something i did on my own, no help from you.

i cant write you notes telling how i feel,
cause that would make me want you too,
make me want something thats not real,
and thats something i cant let myself do.

so this is my final goodbye,
this is my biggest sacrifice,
so suck it up baby, i don't care if you cry,
cause I'm stronger now,
now that your out of my life.