Life Without You!

I don't want to hear it anymore
see if I even care
it doesn't matter to me anyhow
because you were never even there.

Go ahead and say what you want
I already no what's real or not
your the one telling all the lies
that is why I hate you a lot.

I don't care anyways
you never even had a heart
I tried my hardest to keep you happy
but all you did was tare us apart.

I didn't even understand
you never even tried to explain
here you are blaming everything on me
saying that I put you in all this pain.

Now here you are calling me selfish
if I were you I would look around
everything that ever goes on deals with you
thats what always made me depressed and down.

You always got mad at me
if I was to hang out with some other friend
you always made me feel worthless
and now here we are at the end.

Go ahead and say what you want
hurt me more then you already have
I loved you so much chick
but now without you has made me glad.

No more pressure of what to do
no more trying to be there for you
you kept pushing me away anyways
so now you got what you want, so what do you now have to say?

Go ahead and tell people all you want
in my heart I know what is true
I never wanted to hurt you
but you hurt me first so get a clue.

So many memories
so much pain
so many days that are soon to come
so many friends I now am now able to gain.

Free at last
I can finally breath
no more following you around
now I can get what I need.

I need to escape these tears
they drown me everyday
falling always from my eyes
please forgive God I pray.

Forgive me and my sins
forgive me for the things I didn't do
forgive me for saying these harsh things to my so called best friend
and forgive me for always blaming you.

Things happen for a reason
a reason that I can't even explain
but when stuff like this happens
you have to try your hardest to bare through the pain.

I lost a person
who I thought was my best friend
her smiles had been mine for so long
now I know what is right and whats wrong.

I don't care what you do anymore
just leave me the hell alone
I don't want to hear you say things about me no more
because I want to be left alone.

So what if I don't got a best friend no more
it doesn't matter one way or another
it is just one word of its spelling
and I sure the hell can do better.

You lied to me so many times
I have already lost count
I should of seen this real side of you
because fake is what your all about.

I knew you never cared about me
because everyday you blew me away
always ignoring the things I needed you to hear
because you only thought of yourself each and everyday.

When I grow up
and look back on this year
I won't cry out my eyes
but I will shed a small tear.

I will shed a tear
for the friend that I thought was
the person that I thought had cared
but lost me because of the things she does.

She was the only person I loved
with all of my heart
but when she turned her back on me
she tore my heart apart.

I may cry all day today
because of what shes done
I may say I blame myself
but a new life is what has begun.

Without her I stand alone
but with her I would be in pain
for she does something everyday
that had made me go insane.

I only wish I had knew what was going on
but it had been to late
I was just to damn blind to see
that it was our friendship at stake.

So I say
say all you want
do all you the things you do
because it's you only, that needs to get a clue.

(Sry about it being really long! It just all came pouring out into one long AzZ poem...thank-you for reading...chow 4 now...Jennie!)
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