Lost and Confused!

I'm lost in time
not knowing what to think
I don't know who I am
or what day it is of the week.

I got a headache
that never goes away
it stays with me all the time
it follows me throughout each and everyday.

I'm so confused
of what to do
I am so tired
I need a wake up crew.

I can't sleep at nights
I have break downs by day
I cry for no reason at all
and always to God I pray.

Lord hear me when I say
I need your help in every way
I am lost in my time
and I'm lost in this screwed up mind.

My eyes hurt like crazy
my mind has gone numb
my back is always aching
I feel like a scum.

My heart is broken
it falls down to the floor
piece by piece it breaks apart
each time more and more.

My hands shake when I write
my writing shows the way I feel
I try my best to shout out a message
but now I don't know whats fake or real.

Hurt, Pain
please just leave me now
for I can't go on anymore
because I don't know how.

I have nothing to live for
I have regrets only
I been pushed away by the one person I loved
she was my life's only.

It hurts so bad
knowing of what she tells me
she says I am worthless
this is something I now live believe.

Emotions always draining
tears always raining
thoughts of ending it all
my life has made its final fall.

I'm stuck on what to do
I have no one to trust to talk to
the person I trusted turned her back
her advice is what I need but lack.

I got to be strong
show her I can live without
show her I am not weak
and show her what I'm all about.

I can make it better
even if it takes years
but I may never forget
because reminders are my tears.

For every picture I take off my wall
I see the person that I hesitate to call
she hates me
she wants me to let her be.

Mistakes
what is wrong
what is right
where is it I belong?

Do you think I would go to heaven
or fall down to hell?
But if I were to slit my wrists
would you send out this last letter I forgot to mail?

It is to everyone and says:

I am sorry for the things I've done
I am sorry for being the person you thought a scum
I am sorry for not being there when you needed me
I am sorry that I didn't see the things you see
I am sorry for never showing me really caring
I am sorry if you got mad at me for staring
I am sorry if you hated me from the very start
I am sorry if I ever broke your heart
I am sorry if I ever put you in this much pain
I am sorry if my advice was always lame
I am sorry that I was ever even born
I am sorry if your heart has ever been as torn
I am sorry that you lost the person you had loved
I am sorry if you was the person I always bugged
I am sorry if I ever hurt you as bad as you hurt me
I am sorry for any of many of my mistakes
I am sorry for not having the power it takes
I am sorry for all of these things
but most of all I am sorry for everything!

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