No joke

I'm holding this Knife
Only because I'm sick of this life
This is only the perfect plan
And don't tell me you give a damn

I'm sick of shit and so fed up
I'm taking a sip from the devils cup
It's always my fault and i don't know why
So maybe it will be fine if i just die.

So sit back and watch the show
Because i know you know
That this is no joke
On my blood i will choke....