Right before my eyes

It's another windy September day,
my face has formed a frown,
I look up and I read your name
just to look right through and down.

Chad, how could you,
how could you leave me here to grieve?
Did you even think this over twice
before you decided to leave?

I know that you felt down,
and that you were sick of crying,
but Chad, I really needed you,
and now just look who's dying.

I know I'm being selfish,
but you were selfish too,
and now that you are here no more,
what am I supposed to do?

So now I'll have to fake my smile,
and they'll believe my lies,
they won't know I died the day
you disappeared before my eyes.

You don't know what it's like to wake up
and always see your face,
you were constantly telling me how you thought
that death was a better place.

Even though life wasn't fair,
people always cared for you,
and I still love you so very much,
Chad, if only you knew...

You don't know how much it hurt me
to have to say goodbye,
to the only person I truly cared for,
as I had to watch you die.

So this is all I wanted you to know,
it's all I had to say,
I put a red rose on your grave
as I slowly walk away.

©