Pain Free in my Grave

This sickness throbs inside my veins
Pounding against my head
Every day I see the bloody stains
And know I'd be better off dead

Excusing every emotional release
I'm at a point of no return
My damaged body shall find no peace
A lesson I'll never learn

Hope is betrayed and left behind
But I'm too weak to care
Thumping footsteps in my mind
And still no one is aware

Invasions plotting inside my soul
Its tactics can't be explained
Tiny amusements swallow me whole
And leave me emotionally drained

I can fight this losing battle no more
I stand before the gates of hell
I will not see light again- I'm sure
I know this place all too well

Fiery exchange of ammunition shots
The guns that instantly kill
A sign full of "forget me nots"
Of those that lost their will

I thought I was stronger than this
But now, I'm rest assured
I give my breath, one last kiss
All my pain has been endured

Death has never been so sweet
It's been an image I only crave
But now I lie beneath six feet
Lonely, but pain free in my grave

^ It was really late when I wrote this ... Be kind please.