Cross My Heart And Hope To Die

I kept a book of secrets that i burned for your sake on the night i made my decision
I cried blood red tears that fed the flames
As the story of my life was turned to ashes
Your memory is etched too deeply into my soul for any fire to burn it away
I inspected my heart tonight, only to find
Cracks have opened, seams have come unstitched, the rips and tears have lengthened
The chain wrapped around, the one that binds my heart to yours, is crushing it to death
The flickering glow of the flames illuminate my eyes
That have been faded for so long
I'm so dead inside
Even in the warmth, i shiver in fear
Letting go is such much harder than i thought it would be
The stars fall before my feet, weeping soft, sweet serenity
The light disappears, darkness settles into every inch of my mind
A paper thin blade, so delicate and beautiful
Draws a picture on my wrist
The crimson design is screaming your name
There is only one way to deal with this poison that runs through my veins
Cut them open and just let the wounds bleed
Until no breath remains in my broken body
No memories linger in death
You exist only in the letters i have written but never sent
You are remembered in every tear i cried
My heart beat for you and only you
I was confused by this unsettling innocence
I'm sacrificing this tainted heart
Darling, a toast, to you and I
"Here's to the pain, and the hurt,
And every bitter tear i cried on a lonely night"
Goodbye.....cross my heart and hope to die.....