Guidance

I'm sitting in the guidance office,
and i really don't know what to do...
i don't know if i should tell them about everything,
or if i should just get up and leave...
its time to go in now,
my mind is made up,
I'm going to tell them,
i cant hold it in any longer.
Ive told my friends,
they care but don't know what to do.
they love me,
but what more can they do besides that?
i remember a time when i saw this girl,
she cut herself too,
she looked so scared,
shed tried to slit her wrists,
but it didn't work,
so she just went on as if nothing had happened at all.
and i want to do that but my friends already know,
but my mom doesn't even have a clue...
i really want to talk to her,
i just want to go home,
i don't want to be in school, i don't want to hurt anymore,
but i don't get it...
why is it i feel this way when i have everything i could ever want?
maybe its just my head,
messing with me...
i don't know,
i don't think i ever will........