All i hide

Why is it so hard to go on
I always thought i was strong
But this mask i wear is getting thin
It causes me to cut my skin

Alone at night here i can hide
In my blade i have to confide
I never used to be like this
but deep down its love i miss

I'm sick of always having to lie
Next time I'll slice harder and die
Slowly fade into the abyss
Watch them all smile with bliss

My heart will shatter and rip to a shred
Because of all the bullsh!t i was feed
Look at me slowly close my eyes
as i subtly reveal my fatal disguise

The mask now disappeared
Showing the world all i feared
The pain of knowing i meant not a thing
Is breaking my heart because i can't win

My goodbye is now complete
I'll leave my heart and forever sleep
I want you to know I'll smile now
I can survive up here alone some how