Used to

These feelings are tremendous
though they are horrendous
my intentions are benevolent
my outcomes were malevolent

why do i seek to get involved
to make all my problems solved
to whom do i speak
when the answers i seek
cannot be answered
and the question not heard

when it is asked
it is always masked
by intent
and repent

i used to fawn
but my intent is gone
now i must ignore
my feelings so sore

i no longer care about others
i have to care about myself
my intent has changed
why has yours not