Losing my Sanity

As I enter my room,
I lock the door behind me.
I take my knife,
And slowly slice my memories away.

All this pain can finally become real.
Now I can see its presence.
It's no longer hidden deep inside.

All of the pain,
All of the memories.
I can't take it all,
I'm losing my sanity.

Maybe it's better,
If I died rather than lived.
I know everyone wouldn't mind,
I'm just a useless kid.

Forget the good times,
Forget the laughs.
That's all in the past,
It's never coming back.

I know you might wish
That everything was okay
But newsflash people,
This is the way it will have to stay.

So slowly I watch as my life slips away,
Hoping you realize
This was the only way.