My Mistake

I feel torn apart like there is a knife inside me
I don't know what to do anymore
I'm so lost I don't remember who I used to be
I'm so dead inside I don't remember my life before

This world tore me apart
Took away from me all I had to give
My life is gone just like my heart
Now I'm thinking I have no reason left to live

I wish someone would take me far away
To a land where pain was just a fairy tale
I wish I didn't have to go through this pain everyday
To love myself I have seemed to fail

Save me from this nightmare
Tell me everything is over now and you're there
Wipe away this blood running down the strands of my hair
How do I always find myself in pains cold stare?

Its been so long since I could hold my head up high
Its been so lone since I had you there to hold me up straight
This pain gets worse and I find myself wishing I'd die
But suffering in this cold world is my fate

Save me from pains embrace
Kill this evil thats after me
Please take me away from this place
Show me what I used to be

Years go by and I'm all alone
I realized you can't see me at all
I realize I can't go home
Now I know no one can hear my fists hit the wall

I am slowly dieing with no one to see
Alone in the room where my last breaths will be taken
Now I know no one will remember me
I must be forsaken

I take the knife and look down at the world
say my goodbyes even if they cannot hear
Now I know why the world is so cruel
Now I'll be gone at the drop of my last tear

Light flashes before my eyes
But I'm still here
Look down at a person I hated as they cry
Their tears dripping down soaking in with my last tear

I realize then what a mistake I made
All the pain I have caused the world
I realize the mistake I made when I took the blade
Now gone away from the world I thought was so cruel

What have I done?
Why did I take the knife?
Why couldn't I just run?
Why did I throw away my life?