Living For Love

All these people expect me to smile
Like I'm really happy inside
My life seems so perfect to them
But deep down i want to hide

I always thought I'd be alright
But something inside me twisted
And still they think I'm fine
That I'm flawless, "truly gifted"

At first i tried to be nice
It's not like they could see
If i just kept it locked up
Then they wouldn't try to help me

So everyday I'd laugh and joke
And I'd act like all my friends
They all thought my life was bliss
But all good things have to end

Everybody thought they knew me
I was the pretty, perfect one
Then one day i acted differently
And the hatred and deceit begun

No longer did i fit in with you
And i wasn't so perfect after all
But to all of those who judged me
It's because of you i fall

Please before you say something
Before you begin to speak
Just remember I'm a lost cause
Stereotyping has made me weak

One day i just gave up
My parents never even cared
My friends deserted me again
Because i was a disease they feared

They started looking at me funny
"I wonder what happened to that girl"
I wish they'd all stop staring at me
Because i really hate this world

My friend said it was all in my head
That no one expected anything of me
But the way you people looked
I wish my pain you'd see

I'm not the perfect child
And I've made some horrible mistakes
I'm just losing control of my life
And I'm sick of all you fakes

My parents they've always doubted me
And they always would tell lies
I'm not a little girl anymore
Why do you make me want to die?

My boyfriend tries his best
He's always been there for me
Sometimes i wish i could help him
I realize what a pathetic girlfriend i must be

I wish that i could leave them
And then I'd only have myself to blame
My soul can always stay hidden
And slowly the devil can drive me insane

So thanks to my wonderful boyfriend
For always holding my hand
I only live today because of you
You're love has helped me stand