My Fantasy World Crushed

All of my life
I've wanted something more
to be someone else
feel something i have never felt before
i wanted to know if the grass
is really greener on the other side
to live a life
where i feel like i don't have to hide
someplace where
everyone loves me
just because of my smile,
the way i make them feel, or just my personality
i dreamt of a place
and a time that can never be real
a fantasy world untouched
feelings i would never feel
my hopes and dreams were crushed
forever gone and locked away
signifying that they shall remain untouched
until one distant day
in a time when i am happy
for being just the way i am
i felt feelings like independence
and life went outside my plan
my personality changed
along with the way i dressed
i became happier with myself
as these changes progressed
people i had known all of my life
soon saw me as a different person
a stranger that they wanted to know
soon i was known as the upgraded version
enemies were forgiven
most of the old friends stayed
with others grew hardships
i was known as a different girl
to others as well as myself
i soon came to be satisfied with my life
and stopped caring about the thoughts of everyone else
so here i am
the person i am today
i frown upon my old beliefs and thoughts
and chose to go on living life this way