Pretend

Let's pretend for a moment
that everythings okay
I'm not depressed or angry
and haven't hurt myself in any way
Okay now let's be real
that's not the deal
let's say i smile
and the smile isn't fake
that I'm perfectly fine
well at least for today
Act like I don't exist
and that I was never born
Maybe I'm happy, maybe I'm sad
just forget everything I've said
If I'm alive, or if I'm dead
all the memories are still in my head
Hate, anger, and frustration
why am i still waiting
Let's pretend you're reading this
and you don't know what it means
you're trying to figure me out
or so it seems
I've got problems, don't we all
must of us take fall after fall.
I've tried so hard to get better
but hurting my is my shelter
Let's pretend I'm happy
I never ran away
I never took any pills
I never did anything
I never cut my wrist
I don't think about death
there's nothing wrong with me
I've never been depressed
Can you hear that
all the lies i just said
about me never lying in a hospital bed
we know the truth
stop pretending
I wanna get better
I'm demanding
let's play pretend
and act like i"m normal
let's play pretend
and say I'm the perfect portrait
now we know why they call it pretend