Unheard

Just let me go I'm falling apart
There's nothing more to say
These voices inside are tearing my heart
I'll let them have their way

You all said how strong I was
"Was" is the right word...
For now I am as weak as can be
My pleas for help unheard

If you want to know my thoughts inside
Just look at what I wrote
Then maybe you'll realise why
I left this suicide note

I told you all again and again
Crying in the night
How desperate I was feeling then
How nothing could put it right

I guess people like me are ignored
Not taken seriously
Accused of being attention seeking
With every desperate plea

Well those people who refused to see
My suffering and my pain
I wonder if they'll even care
They won't see me again

I wonder if they'll shed a tear
For the thousands I have poured
I wonder if they'll feel some pain
For the years of pain I endured

I don't know why I wonder about this
I'm not supposed to care
Although I do resent the fact that
They were never there

But caring only leads to worse
More pain and so more tears
I think I am afraid to care
I'm supressed by all my fears

So I'll sit here in the dark tonight
I'll sit so still and weep
For I know the only way to peace
Is to be put to sleep...

Any comments would mean a lot right now :-( x