I used to care

I used to care,
I know I did,
I felt embaressment,
Anger, Fear and dread,

But now I just feel empty,
I don't know love or pain,
Jealousy or passion,
All emotion feels estranged.

Deaths of other people?
Crying loss and hurt?
It all seems insignificant,
Like a little piece of dirt.

I spent my life in pursuit of dreams,
I knew they would come true,
And now they have, I'm on top of the world,
Yet I search in vain for you.

I locked out all emotion,
Because if I don't I break,
I did for my dreams,
It was the making of my fate.

My band was pushed and shoved,
And I didn't have a clue,
So I kicked back so hard,
I emerged victorious and new.

Their were rough times and even rougher,
But I gambled and won all,
And now I'm flying high,
I can never ever fall.

But to me it doesn't matter,
I hold my money in a seive,
You see all of it means nothing,
Without you to share it with.

So don't make my mistakes,
Hold your loved ones close to you,
Because if you didn't know it,
This painful stories true.