Finally

Finally it comes down to this,
a knife pushed down into my wrist,
so I can show you all the pain you put me through,
I swear,
I hope,
you bleed a million tears like I once did for you.

You don’t know the nights I have cried
or the fact that I want so bad to die.
But everyday I wake up to another life
another day I have survived

How can I put a smile on my face,
when blood is all that I have ever taste
Love,Pain,Deceit & lies
were only part of your alibi
now im sitting in my room wondering why
how can something so little make you cry?

IT seems as though I have cried a thousand tears,
I don’t know how I have kept going throughout the years
with fake smiles and holding back tears
of how our love died, along with my fears

everyday as though it seems, you have to come and haunt me through my dreams
I began to think of memories and things
When life was perfect
Not a problem seen
But then I wakeup and go back to reality
because not everything is what it seems

I can never go back to you
ever again
it will take a while for this hurt to mend
I don’t know how long or how much time
but soon enough I will learn not to cry
ill learn how to look past the awful things in life,
and with that said this is my final goodbye

Goodbye foolish boy and to all of your lies
Goodbye to the more simpler things in life
Goodbye to everyone that I know
if I don’t go now this hurt will grow,

So I take this knife I hold in my hand,
for me I have a whole new plan
a plan to put me out of this pain,
where I can be free
where I can shout my name,
A plan that can lead me to open doors,
A plan that can lead me to heavens doors

So with that very last word said,
ill take my life on this very bed,
after this I hope you see
the only person who was hurting
was me