There are so many things I can’t understand. Like why you used me, why you hurt me, or why you never loved me. Is it that I’m not worth it? Well I loved you sooo much. No matter what I try nothing can cause the pain to melt away. Every time I see you I want to run into your arms and stay there while you tell me its okay and its just a bad dream. But then I remember that its not and you don’t want me in your arms. Everything reminds me of you. My friends say ill be okay and that I’m over the worst part. They don’t know anything. It hurts to breath knowing that I don’t have you. I tried to stop feeling anything. But physical pain is only temporary and the emotional pain you caused me is forever. I thought I could tell you anything but I was wrong. I thought you understood me. But hey what do ya know…wrong again. I should hate you but I don’t I want to hate you but I can’t. I can’t understand why you would want to make me feel all of this. I can’t understand why you have the power to make me want to take my life just so I don’t have to deal with the pain but most of all I can’t understand why after all of this I still love you.
