A poem to God

People have never been through hell until they get my life,
Full of anger, hate all this strife.
Hating everything about me, theres nothing good to know,
A breath into my life, now their ready to go.

If I get a drop of light,
it always gets taken away by the demons night.
Not wanting to take the life you gave me away,
Even when I beg for death, you leave me here to stay.

Why leave me in a place I hate?
If you really love me God, then take me away, before its too late.
Hating everyone, because I know theyll hurt me,
Having this life is more than disturbing.
Why not believe I live a life so bad?
All I get from friends are how depressing, how sad.

Do not give me life, give me death,
Id savor it with every breath.
I dont want to go to hell, but I dont want to be here either,
Not much of a choice if your desperately eager.
My tears turn into blood as they burn my cheeks,
Wanting to let go, wanting to be released.

Take me away God!Take me now!
Only you I love, only to you I bow.
Controlling a body, with an empty soul,
The pain is making me numb, its making me cold.
Wanting to be one of the dead,
Just take this life away, nothing left to be said.

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