Never Let Go

“its alright,
fight for your life,
I love you so much,
Do not leave me alone,
Just remember my kiss,
And never let go.”
Were the last few words my boyfriend had told me,
Right before the ambulance came,
They lifted me up,
Put me in the truck,
I can barely remember,
What they asked me or sad.

All I remember was my boyfriend,
Finding me after I was raped,
My cloths torn up,
Beaten so bad,
To weak to move,
To weak to speak,
I was shot twice,
Once in the leg,
Once in the chest.
So much blood left my body,
So many IVs connected to me.

Never thought my boyfriend would cry,
He is such a tough guy,
I love him so much,
God please do not let me die,
I do not want him to be alone,
I want to feel his soft touch,
I want to feel his soft kiss,

I grit my teeth holding on for life,
Laying at the hospital,
This pain I cannot bare,
I cry and scream,
The painkillers had no effect on me.

Then all of a sudden,
I was sitting in a chair,
Five doctors were running over to my bed,
As I sat there and noticed,
I was still in my bed,
The line had gone flat,
My soul disconnected,
And angle stood next to me,
I just watched myself die,
I cried uncontrollably.

As the scene then changed,
I was at my boyfriends house,
As the phone started to ring,
He answered it then cried,
I gave him a hug,
Even though I went right through him,
We both sat there and cried.

As the scene changed,
The angle and I went through two doors,
It leads us to one giant room,
Full of people who I knew,
Full of people who were crying.
All were wearing black,
I was up in a coughed dead,
Then my boyfriend showed up,
His eyes were puffy red,
He had been crying so hard,
I went up and kissed him,
It was as if he saw me,
He looked right through me,
He went and sat in a empty chair,
With his lonely heart,
As he stared at my dead body,
I cried for him,
He was dried out of tears,
Spirit has left him.

Then the scenes changed,
To my burial day,
There is the hole dug six feet deep,
Just waiting for me,
As they lower my body,
A paper fell in,
Landing on top of my casket,
It read, “ I love you forever,
No matter the day,
Or the weather,
Or time I will be here,
Wishing you were with me,
I love you so much,
I will never forget you,
Someday I will join you,”

Then the angel and I,
Fast forward in time,
Two weeks and three days,
He was there, sitting at my grave,
I went and sat next to him,
As cuts and scratches appeared on my arms,
I felt no pain,
But there were scars on my arms,
Then for the first time the angel spoke,
“His fate has been set,
No matter what it won’t be changed,
Do not think you can stop him,
Because you can not,”
For the first time since I died,
I felt something inside me,
I was so nervous from the angels words.

The scene then changed,
To him at his home,
I did notlike what I saw,
A sharp blade in his palm,
Tears falling down as he cut his own arm,
Sharp pain stuck me, but a cut on my arm disappeared,
He cut himself again, as I began to cry,
With every cut, it hurt us both,
With every cut, one of him disappeared,
I started to walk his way,
When the angel held me back,
When I remembered I couldn’t do any thing,
So I just asked, “You say I cannot stop him,
Then can I go and hold him,
Be the one to greet him?”
The angel nodded its head,
As I went and held him,
I held him to his very last cut,
To his very last breath,

Then someone tapped me on the shoulder,
I help him in my arms, as I turned my head,
There he was, his beautiful soul,
He handed me a piece of paper,
And this is what it read,
“Everything is gonna be OK,
you and me are together,
I missed you so much,
I have never cried so many tears,
Ya, baby Mr. Tough guy cried,
But you were the only woman I ever loved,”
Tears streaming down both of our faces,
We gave each other a hug,
Then I spoke up,
“I fought for my life,
I did not mean to leave you all alone,
I will remember your kiss, and you I will never let go!”