Self control and not self harm.

Draw your pattern across my wrist its the only way i can deal with this
draw your scarlet across my arm its self control
and not self harm
tell me i am doing well
tell me i wont go to hell
tell me you love me
tell me you care
tell me you will always be there
but these things i must realise you cannot say
the cuts get deeper day by day
the pain hurts less the blood drips more
yet i wont stop till Ive reached the floor
what will you say when you realise what i do
will you pity me and think i can help you
or will you push me aside run home to your wife
and leave me there to slowly die
i cant tell you i cut myself
you'll get all worried about my health
you'll check my arms every day
and when around me you wont know what to say
Ive been doing this since Ive known you
but it isn't you
its some thing i just do
each fine scar represents my past
i try to stop
but it just comes back
maybe I'm crazy
maybe its true
after all i fell in love with you

please comment that way i can improve