Lost Loved Suicide

- This is actually a dialogue I created, and made it into a story/poem. It's different, unlike what I usually write. Sorry about the length. Please tell me what you think ... It's BASED on real life events. Some things have been mildly exaggerated.-

Boy-
"Things are not the same
They're not like they were before"

Girl-
"People change, they grow up
Change - you must learn to endure"

Boy-
"Why aren't you as I remember?
Now you're insecure and afraid"

Girl-
"The day you walked away from me
Was the day I found the blade
Please, I am not blaming you
It was my resulting, wrongful choice
But you never cared to listen
You muted my euphonious voice"

Boy-
"It hurts me to know you do that
To know I contribute to your pain
Next time you have the urge
Come to ME, and then complain
Do not take your anger out
By using a blade to release the hurt
Come to me, give me your damage tool
I'll bury it in the dirt"

Girl-
"Thank you for the offer
But you've ignored my trials
To let you be the one
To make my pathetic days worth while"

Boy-
"I never knew you were hurting
If I did, I would have been there for you
Without knowing something was wrong
There's only so much I can do"

Girl-
"It's not like I never tried to tell you
You never wanted to hear it
I tried countless times to let you in
On my harmful little secret
Do you remember when it ended
The night I found out about -her-?
I asked you who you wanted
You said you just weren't sure?
Do you remember what I told you?
Can you recall the words you said?
I said that I'd forgive you
I said without you I'm better off dead
You told me things would work out
You said hurting me was your worst mistake
But ever since that shattered day
You've continuously added to my break"

Boy-
"I never knew it hurt you this much
I never really thought you cared
I always assumed it was just
An insignificant connection we shared
But now I see that I was wrong
And that this abuse is out of line
I'm sorry for all the things I did
I'm sorry for our lost time"

Girl-
"I'm glad you finally see the pain
And the damage you've bestowed
But it's too late for this compassion
My love has already begun to erode
And it's not that I don't still love you
But it's in a much different way
Everything in my life changed
The day you took your heart and walked away"

Boy-
"Don't you think we could try?
Life is full of second chances
I know that it's a long shot
But we should sometimes take those backward glances
Let's not leave our love in the past
I'll make your broken wings take flight
We can soar together in a dream
Say you'll be with me tonight"

Girl-
"The image is strangely appealing
But an image it will always remain
A fantasy of a life we want
That we can't ever have again
And as I've boldly said before
I still love you with all my heart
But it changed when I learned her name
It was the end of our perfect start
You broke my heart
You shattered it in fact
And when you walked away with yours
You forgot to give mine back
I had to fight your grasp
So I could retrieve what belonged to me
And it took me too many months
To take my heart and make it free"

Boy-
"Do not dwell on what I did wrong
I now see my own mistakes
Let's forget and start a new
I swear this time I won't slam the brakes
I will be faithful to you
I've learned my lesson now
You've taught me how to love
You've taught me how to be true"

Girl-
"Your pleading comes too late
And as much as I want this fantasy to be real
I have to let this false hope go
And let these wounds start to heal"

With her final words of wisdom
And his last plead from on his knees
She kissed him on the forehead
And floated on into the breeze
All the while shaking her head
As the tears fled from her eyes
But the excuses had been made
And had took him by surprise
She wanted him more than anything
And she lied when she said love changed
But she could not bear to be hurt again
Her life could not be deranged
So she shut the door on love
Cursed life and still being alive
One last time she took that blade
And embraced death from apparent suicide.