I know your there

I’m sat here and my mum has just has a go
I want to escape from this life I haven’t got anymore
I ask who understands and the answer is no one
I just want to feel myself again, know who I am
I want to be someone who I am rather than what they expect
I want to finally know who I am and be someone who I am
I want them to understand me and understand that I’m not perfect
I can’t be like them no matter how much they want it
And I’m not going to try anymore because that’s just another lie
I don’t get it anymore though, I don’t get why they don’t understand
I have no one left to care for me anymore and I can’t stand it
They all say they care but it’s just a matter of time ‘till it’s all gone again
Just matters of time ‘till I hurt them too and I wont do it to them
I can’t do it to them because they are all worth so much more
Mum has a go at me again, telling me I’m a nothing basically
She has the right idea though, she knows me
She knows who I am and that the lie isn’t a lie
She knows that I try and use it as an excuse
The one person who wants to know me and wants to help
Isn’t here anymore.