What really matters as friends

It's hard to describe
what hurts down inside
it's hard for you too see
that i am happier indeed

i know I'm lost at times
and i get so frustrated
it's only because I'm scared
that things will end as past undated

i always want to remember you
i always want to make you smile
i live for the moments
when we cried for awhile

i never want to loose touch
or loose that loving hand
please please stay close
even if you have a special man

i will always give you space
for you and that special someone
just please don't leave me here
without a shoulder to lean on

I'm so scared to be alone
it eats me from the inside out
i just hope you understand
I'm not trying to be selfish and doubt

i try not to doubt
that you won't ignore me some day
forget the friendship we worked for
and just choose to walk away

i pray that we stay friends
from now until forever
but please please prove me wrong
if my doubt becomes the weather

on and off i can't decide
i won't know until he's here by your side
and when he is I'm so happy no doubt
i just don't want to be ignored or left out

it's happened in the past
and I'm scared it will happen in the future

i just can't bear to be close
and loose that friend again
the one that was always their
but found someone special and choose to ignore what we shared

but what you choose
is all your choice
i just hope your that friend
that i hope is always their

i love you Nicole
as my best-est friend ever
i would do anything for you
to be happy is what matters

so please understand
that I'm not trying to say ignore your man
I just hope we stay friend
and don't loose touch like so many others have been